It’s been several months of hiatus.
To be honest, I almost gave up on this blog but just a few weeks ago I decided, “what the heck?” it’s my blog and I can do whatever I want, and right now; I want to write.
I am suddenly inspired by my surroundings again; my supportive family, my caring friends and my wonderful boyfriend. It amazes me the power of relationships and I’m not talking about boyfriend/girlfriend relationships; just human relationships in general. 2009 wasn’t the greatest year for me as I got sick a lot (like every other month), work was hell (no raise or bonus - wait, I lie! I got $140 as a “thank you for sticking with us” which felt more like pity money than “thank you” money), financially; I felt insecure and still do as I currently hold a position that I no longer care for and wish there was a way out and to top things off, I broke my iPhone and finger right before the ball drop into 2010.
Let’s just say that with all insight, 2009 couldn’t have gotten any worse and although this might sound a bit hypocritical it was also a good year for me. Aside from colds, budgeting, broken phones and limbs my relationships with certain people grew stronger. I reconciled with my sister, a relationship that became tarnished far before I could understand “certain things.” My dear friends welcomed a beautiful baby boy and I had the privilege of spearheading their baby shower (along with my wonderful girlfriends).
- I became a better girlfriend (I think?).
- I became a better daughter
- I became and understanding sister
- I became a supporting friend
- I stopped eating red meat
- I lost several pounds (yipee)
- I worked at a wine bar and got let go (they said, “slow times” but I think it meant “fired”)
- I finished decorating my apartment
In the mist of obscurity it’s often hard to recognize the good in all that happens. I had a nervous breakdown last year and although I was ashamed at first, I’m not anymore. I took control of my life and the turmoils that were contributing to that negative sphere. As most know, I spend my nine to five in a high rise building filled with people that for the most part I cannot relate to. I felt trapped by the surrounding walls of my cubicle, I felt lost and didn’t know if this was going to be it for me. With the help of all those around me I realized this is not it for me my calling does not include a cubicle, suits, high-rise buildings or monochromatic offices. I see a rainbow in 2010 and hopefully when I reach the end I find myself in a shining light with colorful surroundings, a new job and a little extra cash in my pockets! I’m back!! 2010 is calling for a difference and I’m up for the challenge. I’ll be 2-5 and promise myself to be in the best shape; physically, mentally and emotionally.
Cheers to keeping promises!
XOXO,
Eve
p.s. To my loving boyfriend….Thank you! I can’t picture being able to get through 2009 without you. They say to not lay all your eggs in one basket but I don’t mind laying mine in yours.
